Remind yourself every day of your progress. 

Few people are aware of this, but If you pull the blanket over your head, you are not invisible, and you still have responsibilities. It's essential to move on when one era of your life seems to have ended.

A crisis is a chance to turn a challenge into an opportunity.

Dan Trepanier

Mentor Coach , Remind Yourself Every Day of Your Progress

Few Of My Expectations Were Ideally Met — Now What?

Make a list of all the incredible benefits and rewards you have realized over the last six months of challenges.

The positives should outweigh the negatives, especially when measuring success in spiritual and human terms rather than economic terms.

In May 2014, my first month of ‘new freedom,’ I naively attempted to predict precisely how the coming months of the next phase of my life would unfold. I aimed to bring magnificent ideas into the world.

  • First, I’ll take a well earned month’s vacation to launch and handy-work my 30′ sailboat in Toronto harbour.
  • Then I’lhangout on my modest Yacht (bought the year before) and have a few epiphanies as I spend the summer writing and curating fresh content for my blog site. 

Finally, I will brilliantly craft my business plan and launch a consulting practise that will change the world. If I build it, they will come — WHACK! Stage left comes the biggest sucker punch and reality check the universe can deliver. 

Here’s how it played out; 

  • I spent three full, intense months of what felt like pure hell doing messy fibreglass work sweltering humidity. I replaced deck hatches, upgrading hardware, stubbing my toes, draining my pocketbook and lived in a confined cabin that felt more like a dusty tool shed than a stately vessel on the water.
  • With the exception, a dozen fresh sailing experiences that looked magical on Facebook, make no mistake life was NOT physically and emotionally robust! 
  • I worked my ass off from dawn until dusk, invested hundreds of unpaid hours, thousands of dollars (initially slated for future housing) on upgrading my boat to a standard beyond reason or cost recovery.
  • Despite all this, I knew I was on the right track by focusing on something that would pay off down the road.
  • Then August and September were spent developing new (hit and miss) friendships while contemplating the meaning of life as I struggled with the perceived loss from being handed the end of the opportunity to continue being part of a national cause-driven organization.
  • I thought that after 19 years of service, my work’ gig’ would last at least 12 more years until retirement.

Oh sure, I was making new friends that summer but soon realized that owning a cool sailboat is like walking the cutest puppy in the park. Everyone wants to be your friend and hang out with you until the dog pisses on someone’s leg. In my case, when fall comes and the boat comes out of the water and party time is over.

Ten points for living life with zeal but zero points for economic wisdom.

The next two months spent taking online courses, studying, and allowing myself to get sucked into every distraction that came my way.

Meanwhile, I was in serious denial over what seemed like a debilitating depression that could only be soothed by social media; self-inflicted make pretends busyness and a big tub of chocolate ice cream. — What was happening to me!?

Yup, I was having a massive pity-party. There were days within the first six months after receiving my severance package, whereby I could not even move off the couch. Fear, perceived loss, anger, and confusion were all getting the better of me like the nasty flu the day before Christmas!

Few Of My Expectations Were Ideally Met — Now What?

I did not expect this turmoil in my life because I’m usually a very’ together’ person! I knew logically that despite the frustrations, the universe was teaching valuable life lessons.

As a practitioner of Vipassana Meditation, Moksha Yoga and sailing, I was well aware on an intellectual level that everything is a brief snippet in the ebb and flow of time. Stay calm, and meditate was the order of the day.

— This, too, shall pass! — still, my life sucked (or so I felt)

Dr. Wayne W. Dyer wrote Change Your Thoughts Change Your Life — Living the Wisdom of the Tao. Here he speaks to the 2nd Verse about ‘Living the Paradoxical Unity’ (pg. 9). “Beauty depends on something identified as ugly…. A “duality belief system” depends on opposites. A person is not tall unless there’s a belief system that includes short. Life couldn’t exist without that of death.” He goes on to explain…. ‘the day is the opposite of night.’

These profound insights reinforced for me the importance of living openly with apparent duality and not fighting what is.

If opposites are the paradoxes of a unified life whereby experiences flow in and out like ocean tides, what on earth was my problem? All the nasty temporary shit I was going through meant I was alive and ‘living the paradoxical unity of life.’

Let me sum it up for you; In six months, few of my expectations were realized. My predictions were mostly wrong, and I could not control the elements, which freaked me out! — Dan Trepanier

I had an epic battle with ego, facing my fears and living life on my terms (careful what you ask for). Despite all the self-inflicted drama, I had a roof over my head, a fridge full of food, was surrounded by people who appreciated my presence as I enjoyed theirs. I was safe and well on my way to, as Maslow puts it, ‘becoming a self-actualized person.’ — yet I still felt lost!

The plot thickens

  • Almost seven months into my life’s emotional mind-fuck battle, I got up one morning and decided I couldn’t take the pressure. The uncertainty, lack of structure, coupled with the ill-formed belief thinking I would go broke and die if I did not find a job soon, was bullshit.
  • All this even though I had no debt, enough savings to pay the bills for five more years, no dependants (except a few house plants), good health, and lots of love in my life. — So what was my problem?

That same morning I thought it best to work on a new resume, give in and start searching for a well-paying job as a national manager with another cause-driven organization. 

As I gleaned through countless LinkedIn postings, I felt his uneasy sensation in my stomach’s pit. Intuitively I sensed that applying for another gig in a large organization would pay the bills (allowing me to keep my savings intact). However, I also felt that working in the wrong type of hierarchical setting would suck the life out of me, pull me away from living life on my terms, do what matters (to me), and launch my magnificent ideas.

Read: Are You a Constructive Irritant? – Good For You! [ES-M1]

The sad truth is that most people I talk to these days feel the same way but are too afraid or unaware!

Getting a traditional job seems like the logical and right thing to do, but at this juncture, in my life, the timing felt off. My partner had recently lost his job, so we were both not earning money. The pressure to go out and find a job with full benefits was immense! What would you have done in this situation?

Then it hit me — Why not just accept that at 54 years of age, I would rather die or end up a penniless monk than compromise my integrity or dreams for a false sense of security via a $70K+ paycheck in the wrong type of setting. 

Or to put it another way. I wanted to spend my remaining work years enjoying more creativity, sharing more of my energy with my community, and continue surrounding myself with authentic people who value my presence while I consistently appreciate theirs!

Life is never a dress rehearsal. I had decided to live on my terms and not someone else’s. 

Suppose I’m lucky enough to find a traditional job that supports my definition of success. In that case, I’m all game, but starting a new corporate career that fits my dreams is like stumbling across a needle in a haystack on a snow-covered day!

By December 2014, I was beginning to accept that I will do or dye trying to live life on my terms, even if the financial and material price gets painful along the way.

Let me repeat this important point:

I will do or die trying to live life on my terms, even if the financial and material price I have to pay gets painful along the way.

Now, if you are going to look at the downside of a proposition, it’s equally as essential to explore the upside (Remember Dyer’s concept of Paradox and Duality).

I made a list of all the incredible benefits and rewards I had realized over the last six months of supposed hell. WOWO, what a great list! The positives far outweighed the negatives, especially when measuring success in spiritual and human terms rather than economic terms. 

A big part of healing a debilitating irrational sense of depression is to ponder and appreciate the simple joys and pleasures of everyday life. I know this sounds a little trite and cliche, but it’s easier said than done. When one is mired in the muck of a self-employed, highly creative, somewhat quirky person always dealing with transition, there will be drama — deal with it!

For instance, I just spent a full day writing the first draft of this post, not knowing if anyone would read it or even care what I have to say. I felt like expressing myself and am convinced that someone out there will relate to what I am saying. 

Tomorrow I’ll get up and start all over again to curate or create another piece of writing. Eventually, I’ll have dozens, in not a hundred stories to share as I live on my terms and do what matters.

Love Life,
Dan Trepanier

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